Monday, August 11, 2014

Enter Big Worm



Okay, so there are several interesting characters in my neighborhood.   I’ve mentioned Woody and his racist truck and The Little Girls, but today, I have to mention my neighbor, Big Worm.    



An aptly named big, pink, bald dude, Big Worm is actually the father of one of the Little Girls.  By all accounts he appears to be a hardworking tow truck driver.  To be fair, I usually see him towing his own car or the cars of his friends and neighbors, but he is always working.  I had to mention him today because he just pulled the hood-est move I’ve seen since I lived in New Orleans (yep.  I just used the word “hood-est” to indicate that this was some of the most hood shit I’ve  ever seen).  

Today, he wasn’t even towing a car—He was towing furniture! 

If there was an award for using one’s tow truck creatively for purposes other than towing vehicles, I think Big Worm should be a contender.  My mom actually took this picture.  It’s not a great picture, but she tried to take the picture inconspicuously.   At least you can see the top of Big Worm’s head in this picture.  You can see for yourself that he truly does look like the worm on his business card.



This picture cracks me up.  Another amusing day in the neighborhood.

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Little Girl Plus One



Upon first look, my neighborhood is not very nice to look at.  If you were driving by, you might even lock your car doors out of fear of potential violence.  You wouldn't be wrong to be afraid.  It definitely goes down over here—assaults, armed robberies, narcotics, prostitution—we’ve got it all.  But the poverty and violence of east Dayton is only part of the story.  



The Historic Inner East is an old-school style neighborhood.  Friends and neighbors sit outside with one another, socializing and watching each other’s kids.  Kids here play outside until the street lights come on.  Unlike many suburban kids who spend countless hours inside the house playing on smart phones, computers, and Xbox, these kids-- who have little to no access to technology outside of the classroom-- actually still play outside. While I hate that these kids have insufficient access to the technology necessary for a modern education, I like watching these little knuckleheads play.  It reminds me of my own childhood in the ‘80s where kids came home from school and went outside to play until dinner time.  It’s decidedly old school here.  I mean, people around here still use pay phones.    The Little Girl who recently defended her mixed-race sister to one of the neighborhood girls regularly rides the bumpy streets and sidewalks on a pair of skates.  When is the last time you saw a kid using skates as her main mode of transportation?  She is amazing to watch as she navigates the bumpy streets and sidewalks of this neighborhood, occasionally swaying and wobbling, but never falling down.   

Skater Girl (as I am now calling her) brought her three-year-old sister to my house to meet Lulu and I. The little girl, K-Lee, (okay, so I’ve changed her name a bit, but it’s still a consonant then a hyphen followed by “Lee”)  immediately gave me that knowing look that many mixed kids do.  It’s the look of “you look like me!”   Skater Girl lovingly looked out for her sister as the little girl teetered around my porch, alternately chasing Lulu then swiftly running away.  The three-year-old was holding with two hands a large soda from McDonald’s where the girls ate breakfast this morning.  Skater Girl explained that it was the three-year-old’s fifth cup of soda this morning—it was only 11:30am.  I try not to judge the grandparents who are raising these girls the best way they know how.  “My mommy is in jail,” declared the three-year-old as her big sister shushed her and gently scolded her for sharing the family business.  Truth be told, Skater Girl has been stopping by my house a little more often that I would like, but after hearing about their mother’s incarceration, my heart softened a little bit.  She just needs someone to talk to, to ask her about her day. 

I suppose I can do that.    

Friday, August 8, 2014

Turning This House into a Home



Today, the movers brought my stuff!!  My belongings have been in storage for a year, while I moved around to Chicago, Southern California, and now Dayton.  It feels good to unpack everything and turn this house into a home (Luther Vandross’s “A House is not a Home” playing in the background).    
This neighborhood continues to fascinate me.  I feel my blackness here in a way I never have before.  Racial tension is pervasive here, yet there is an oddly friendly, old-timey neighborhood vibe.  For example, everybody knows everybody else on the block and there is a slow but constant flow of neighbors visiting one another’s houses.  When the work day is done, neighbors honk and wave to one another on the way home.  And kids here still play in the streets until the street lights come on.  However, amid these friendly exchanges, a confrontation tinged with racism occurs. One of the Little Girls stopped by to tell me about an altercation she had up the street.  I had just heard her yelling at another girl in the neighborhood, but I chalked it up to children being loud and boisterous.  The Little Girl confesses that a ten-year-old girl up the street called her little sister “a black A-S-S-  bitch” (yes, she spelled out “ass” because, as she explained, she’s only  eleven years old and she’s not allowed to use curse words—yet she did say the word “bitch” so who knows).  Her little sister is only three years old.  One of several mixed-race children in the area, most of whom are born to local white women and black men who presumably live across the river-- they definitely don’t live in this neighborhood.  As the Little Girl explains the altercation with the other girl, she says of her sister, “yeah, she’s black but she’s only three.  She can’t help it.”  I’m not clear as to which thing she can’t help—being black or being three years old.  I guess either way, she’s right; however, I assume she meant that her sister can’t help being black (the presumption being that if she could help it, she would).  
 In this neighborhood, being black is not considered a good thing and to point out the fact of one’s blackness is clearly meant to be an insult.   In defense of her little sister, the Little Girl rallies the other Little Girls and they rode their bikes to the end of the street to confront the offending  party.   At that moment, the Little Girls attempted to restore the honor of the three year old girl who was publicly called out for being black.  As I watched them ride away, I waved to a neighbor sitting across the street.  She simply got up and walked inside her house.  I guess she wasn’t interested in getting to know her new neighbor.   

Not more than ten minutes later, the man with the racist truck comes over to introduce himself.   I had recognized him yesterday as the truck’s owner when he returned home from work.  I was expecting a surly old man, but this dude (who looks like an older, heavier version of the late George Carlin— ponytail and all) is quickly greeted by the neighborhood children.  He smiles and asks them about their day and the children detail the rules of the game they were playing.   While I think the messages on Woody’s truck are vile, he seems like a cool enough guy.  We probably won’t be hanging out much, but we can exchange neighborly pleasantries from time to time.  As long as we never talk politics, we should be good.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

The Little Girls Make an Appearance



I signed the lease this morning.  I spoke to the rental agent about installing some securing measures in the home, including an alarm system, and he agreed.  Upon my second visit to the neighborhood, I felt a bit better about living in the house.  Not because the neighborhood improved overnight or anything,  but because I have become determined to make it work.  Despite the questionable neighborhood, the house itself is great.  A two-story, turn-of-the-century home with a “parlor” in the front and a big yard for Lulu in the back.  As my mom and I were moving things into the house, three little girls from the neighborhood came by to say hello.  I guess, they weren’t really little—they are junior high school students—but they aren’t weathered and hardened like most of the adults in the neighborhood, which gives them a certain youth and innocence that I find charming.  They said how happy they were that someone was moving into the house (apparently, it has been empty for some time now) and they wanted to meet Lulu and talk about their respective pets.  I can’t exactly say why, but after talking to the Little Girls (which will be their collective name henceforth), I felt a certain amount of relief.  Perhaps not the same kind of relief I would feel if just one adult in this neighborhood would acknowledge my presence, but relief nonetheless.   I also knew that if the Little Girls were on my side, they would alert me to any strange activity around my home, since they were out playing in the streets all day until the street lights came on.  Perhaps I will be able to find my place in this neighborhood yet.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Arrival in Dayton-- Where the Hell Am I??



I didn’t write about Dayton the first day I arrived.  I couldn’t.  My first impressions of my new neighborhood were so negative that I needed to sit on it for another day before I wrote anything.   It’s not like I didn’t do my research before moving here.  I did.  I read everything I could get my hands on.  I moved here with the understanding that my new neighborhood is poor, undereducated, underemployed, and overwhelmingly white.  But as I turned down my street for the first time, the decaying sidewalks and dilapidated homes made me apprehensive.  Neighbors turned their heads to watch me as a drove down the street.  This is a neighborhood full of locals and I, with my California tan, white-rimmed sunglasses, and Cali license plates on my car, immediately let everybody know that I’m not from around these parts.   The porch dwellers stared blankly as I hopped out of my car to check out the house.  Now, after living many years in the South, I have seen my fair share of porch-sitters.  I am no stranger to seeing a couch on the porch.  But these folks have 5-piece living room sets on their front porches.   It’s on another level.  As I pull up to the house, I park behind a truck covered in right-wing and moderately racist political bumper stickers.   

Sayings like, “Zoo Has African Lion, White House Has Lying African” and “Danger! Right Wing Extremist On Board” make me wonder if I will be safe in this house, in this neighborhood.  And I could swear I saw the same kids who were “stalking” the Google van in those Google Earth images.  My thoughts?  To quote GOB Bluth from Arrested Development, “I’ve made a huge mistake.”

I went back to the hotel that night and frantically looked for a new place to live.  I wasn’t set to sign the lease until the next morning.  Yes, I would lose my deposit, but my personal safety is most important.  My mom and I both searched the internet and newspaper for another house, but to no avail.  I am going to sign the lease in the morning and hold my breath….

Sunday, August 3, 2014

America the Beautiful



The last several days on the road have been interesting.  This country is amazingly beautiful.  We drove through the Rockies, stopping in Denver to see my grandma and meet my cousin’s new baby.   The older I get, the more I appreciate spending time with family—I don’t get nearly enough of it.  As we headed east, we drove through farm country in Kansas, where the golden wheat fields were set against the background of a purplish gray sky.  Ominous looking, but beautiful.  


 The rolling green hills of Missouri were dotted with lovely lakes and ponds all along the way.   I always have associate Missouri with racial strife, prejudice, and white supremacist movements, but apparently there is also beautiful farm land there too.  Who knew?  



I am obsessed with East St. Louis
This was my first time in St. Louis and I have to say, this city is unforgettable.   Yeah, the St. Louis arch is an impressive and imposing figure on the city’s skyline and the architecture of the buildings and bridges is noteworthy, the most striking feature about St. Louis is her lesser sister across the river—East St. Louis.  East St. Louis is one of the most fascinating cities in America.  It is also one of the poorest, most violent, most abandoned and most racially segregated cities in America.  Sure, I have seen St. Louis appear many times at the top of the list for most violent cities in the U.S., but I didn’t exactly know what that looked like until I went there myself.  My mother, the goodtime gambler (I’ve never called her that until right now), wanted to visit a St. Louis casino and the Casino Queen happens to be just across the river in East St. Louis.  I’m not much of a gambler, but I did want to see what East St. Louis was all about, so I figured I would drop off moms at the casino and then drive around East St. Louis  a bit (two birds, ya know?).   Well first of all, I was struck by how abandoned it was.  I was driving for blocks and blocks and never saw a single soul.  There were no businesses or services for blocks.  Nothing.  Not a corner store.  Not a mechanic.  Not a restaurant.  Not a school.  Absolutely nothing except for abandoned buildings and houses, which served as evidence that life did exist there once upon a time.   


Eventually we saw some homes that were occupied by tenants, a few women and their children walking down the sidewalk, and some men hanging out on the corner while others worked on a nearby car.  How could THIS abandoned city be one of the most violent spaces in America?  Well let me tell you, I have spent time in South Atlanta, the Anacostia neighborhood in Washington D.C.,  Harlem, the south side of Chicago, West Baltimore, South Central Los Angeles (in the ‘90s), and the Ninth Ward in New Orleans, and East St. Louis is in a class of its own.   Like most violent cities, East St. Louis has a broken public school system, high unemployment, and insufficient housing.  But with large swaths of the city abandoned, crime is rampant and goes largely unchecked.  While driving through, I couldn’t help but think about how vulnerable I was.  If someone committed a violent crime against me, who would be around to see it and report it? I saw little to no police presence in the city (not that I’m suggesting police are the answer) except near the casino.  The city goes out of its way to protect visitors but seems to do very little to protect the city’s residents.  Later that night at the hotel, I read more about St. Louis and its problems with political corruption, police misconduct, and urban slumlords that make the city’s future precarious at best.  Oh, and did I mention that East St. Louis is overwhelmingly black?  Racial segregation undoubtedly plays an important role in the continued violence and poverty of the city.  I can’t help but wonder about how these same issues will be at work in Dayton.... 



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August 9, 2014, just six days after I posted this blog, Michael Brown, an unarmed black teenager was gunned down by a white police officer in Ferguson, MO- a suburb of St. Louis.  The struggle continues....